I went to UP today para sa briefing ng mga volunteers para sa campus tour sa monday. Ang totoo niyan, first time ko tong nakilahok sa isang volunteer activity in college - where everything’s so serious.
At minsan na kong napaisip kung bakit nga ba ako nagvolunteer eh wala naman tong medal o grade or whatever. (Tapos kanina ko lang nalaman na may certificate) But despite the doubt, my gut kept telling me to just do it, for the mere experience itself. At nung nandun na ko kanina, all I felt was, EXCITED. Okay, hindi ako excited sa 6 am na call time, pero feeling ko naman enjoy siya, at fulfilling naman. OO, nararamdaman kong fulfilling na kahit di pa nagsisimula. HAHA.
Anyway, the campus tour seems fun ad tiring, but I’m really looking forward to it :)
I mean, I could act, dance, sing, write, and so on and so on, but I don’t think I’m really good at those. The only thing I know I’m really good at has to do with make-up, clothes, shoes, hair, designing and other girly stuff. I ‘m interested in learning them, and I learn them fast.
That’s why this summer, I kind of focused on learn more about that certain field. I know it’s not something you could showcase in talent show, but it’s something I’m proud off. HAHA.
This is just a thought ‘cause I get a little frustrated thinking about things that I can’t really excel at. I know everyone has a talent, and no matter how complicated or simple it may be, it’s something to be happy about :)
It’s kind of irritating to know that he took time off without me knowing it. i was left hanging as ever. But then I know it helped a lot.
Sometimes the relationship is just too exhausting with all the fights and misunderstandings that you just want to escape and end it. But sometimes that’s not the solution. Other times, it only takes a few days off the relationship to know each other’s worth. At the end thinking things through, you either realize that that person is too precious to let go, and you are truly in love with the person and as a result, you’d to whatever you can to make it work, no matter how hard it is. Or you realize it’s better for both of your happiness and comfort to be free.
No matter what decision you’ll land into, at least you’ll know you gave it a thorough thought.
Right now, I really don’t know what’s happening to us. you haven’t spoken to me and 6 days have already passed. You left me with just the text “I miss you” .. But if you do miss me, why don’t you just talk to me?
It’s crazy when I’m uncertain about what you feel towards me. A part of me says that this is your way to say goodbye, so you wouldn’t have to go through all the drama of goodbyes if ever you say it to me. You don’t want to be the first one to say the words “I’m leaving”, so you left that decision in my own hands.
But then there’s also a part of me who knows you wouldn’t do such thing to me. Maybe something terrible came up and you don’t know how to face me after that. I want to wait for you, I want to stay, I want to give you the time you need (if that’s what you really need) and then hear your explanation when you’re ready.
Crazy as it sounds, I do want to stay, despite how painful it is right now. But I don’t know until when could I handle the pain. How many more days I could agonizingly wait for you to miss me so bad you’d give me a call. We’ve been through so much together, you know I’ll always listen and try to understand what’s going on, but how could I possibly do that if you leave me in thin air without any explanation at all? I’m so confused.
Yung nagbibiro ka lang naman tapos makapagseryoso naman siya. Nilalambing ko lang naman siya kapag ganun tapos magiinarte nanaman. pag siya nga eh tuloy-tuloy na kahit na nababadtrip na ko, sige parin siya. Tapos ako, nung una palang na magtampo-tampuhan siya binawi ko na yung jokes ko. Nakakainis talaga! kanina padin siyang umaga eh. LETCHE. Bahala siya. Di ko siya itext dyan eh. panira masyado ng gabi. wtf.
In a couple of hours, they’ll be back here in the Philippines, not for good though. Just a month to have a vacation and to attend the Relayo reunion on May 4th. I’m excited! But I also feel so tired that i just want to sleep tonight, sadly, i can’t. i don’t think we’ll be able to sleep anyway.